This is my first post and as a guest to the site. I would prefer to remain anonymous; however I will be divulging some very personal information as to why I entered into this seedy underworld commonly known as the strip club industry.
I am a single mother and at this point, it is probably safe to say that I have been shaking my ass for dollar bills for far too long, but it could always be worse, right? I mean, hey, at least I'm not a whore, which brings me to why I started stripping.
I was working full-time, 3rd shift at a "regular job" and I just wasn't making enough money to live on and save for an apartment. At this time in my life I was homeless, living in a motel room with my 2 small children and 3 other adults. Needless to say it was a very trying situation. I was desperate and I saw absolutely no other options, so before you pass your judgments on all strippers, please realize that you really can't judge people based solely on their occupations.
We are not all alcoholics, drug addicts and prostitutes, believe it or not. Some of us are real people with real feelings and we need to be loved just as much as anyone else out there.
Of course, we have issues, but everybody has issues.
Why does the fact that I grind strange cock for money make me less deserving of a healthy relationship? It's not like I suck dick for crack.
So then, I wonder, is it so impossible to find a mate? Maybe it's just that there is something wrong with every guy I've been with. Maybe there is something wrong with me. Maybe I am, as they say, pure evil. Whatever it is I just can't seem to get it right, and so, here I sit alone in my own personal hell.
I would like to thank Zack for giving me the opportunity to share my experiences. Sincerely, I thank you so much.
PAIN
Today I found out
Exactly what you are all about
Backstabbing, so-called
False love, fake hope
Imaginary joy
Shattered spirit, broken soul
The joker has all the cards.
My life is a joke, freedom a myth
Sorrow overcomes, darkness consumes
Death devours
Evil wins
Let's play your game now.
Arise, conquer, defeat, overcome
I will not die, I will not be defeated